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ailietWell.
I don't think anyone had predicted 'total career annihilation' for August, but here we are. I'm keeping a post with names and summaries firmly under lock, but it seems appropriate to have some sort of public marker for myself to see.
It feels terribly weird and disorienting to have something that brought me so much delight over the last five months suddenly cause so much sadness. I've burst into tears, frantically downloaded things, and dipped in and out of what a Victorian might call a 'nervous state'. From beginning to possible end, this fandom has surprised me. While I don't regret a moment of it, I think this will have an effect on my interests going forward. The novels will stay, the live actions will possibly be engaged with, but any new actors will have to stay at a remove. What's happened is an option I didn't really understand to be on the table, and I'm not willing to go through this again. It probably couldn't be duplicated anyway, but who knows. The world's a strange place.
I don't think anyone had predicted 'total career annihilation' for August, but here we are. I'm keeping a post with names and summaries firmly under lock, but it seems appropriate to have some sort of public marker for myself to see.
It feels terribly weird and disorienting to have something that brought me so much delight over the last five months suddenly cause so much sadness. I've burst into tears, frantically downloaded things, and dipped in and out of what a Victorian might call a 'nervous state'. From beginning to possible end, this fandom has surprised me. While I don't regret a moment of it, I think this will have an effect on my interests going forward. The novels will stay, the live actions will possibly be engaged with, but any new actors will have to stay at a remove. What's happened is an option I didn't really understand to be on the table, and I'm not willing to go through this again. It probably couldn't be duplicated anyway, but who knows. The world's a strange place.
