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on the eve
Dec. 24th, 2021 07:49 pmOn December 5th, Li Xuezheng said there would be news in 20 days, and now here I am on Christmas Eve crying over a photo of someone’s thumb. Or, to give a clearer idea of things, Zhang Zhehan has filed a case for review with the Beijing police. They’ll announce their decision on whether to proceed with it in 7 days, on New Year’s Eve. In the meantime, this can join the Merlin series finale on the list of Fandom Things I’ve Had Feelings About on Christmas Eve. (Thankfully, it’s a short list.)
The last six weeks have been a bit of a rollercoaster (there’s a timeline of events here). Sadness, fury, hope, & worry— I’ve veered through all of them, though not as deeply as I could’ve done. LXZ is so good at what he does that I keep pulling back from my own emotional response, wanting to look closer at what he’s doing instead. He hits his chosen notes so hard and so well, it’s just impressive to watch. It’s also concerning. As has been the case since August, I don’t know what a good outcome would be here. My very basic hope is that ZZH will have options, and the time to choose which one is best for him. With everything happening it can be easy to forget that there’s a very real person trapped in the heart of this, in a situation that’s growing more complicated with each passing week.
The last six weeks have been a bit of a rollercoaster (there’s a timeline of events here). Sadness, fury, hope, & worry— I’ve veered through all of them, though not as deeply as I could’ve done. LXZ is so good at what he does that I keep pulling back from my own emotional response, wanting to look closer at what he’s doing instead. He hits his chosen notes so hard and so well, it’s just impressive to watch. It’s also concerning. As has been the case since August, I don’t know what a good outcome would be here. My very basic hope is that ZZH will have options, and the time to choose which one is best for him. With everything happening it can be easy to forget that there’s a very real person trapped in the heart of this, in a situation that’s growing more complicated with each passing week.
